Pause. Soak.

[DISCLAIMER: THIS IS A VERY SUMMARIZED VERSION OF WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON...PLEASE FEEL FREE TO EMAIL US WITH ANY QUESTIONS OR CONFUSION, AS WE CAN'T GIVE DETAILED EXPLANATION ABOUT EVERYTHING IN THIS POST. THANKS!)

Wow...what an amazing, interesting, revealing and ...WOW kind of month! God has been talking and revealing and correcting and healing all month. It has truly been an intimate, wonderful time with Him.

God has gently corrected Matt & I in some wrong thinking. We've been very set on not having chemo simply because God said NO - that's it. We realize that we've been "justifying" that statement by telling people God's going to heal us through suppliments, diet, vitamins...all VERY good life-style changes. However, it neglects one key thing: MATT WAS HEALED WHEN CHRIST ROSE FROM THE GRAVE!!! To reject chemo and embrace natural cures still points to: A) we have accepted cancer, and B) we think we have to DO something to receive healing...Christ's life, death and ressurection wasn't enough.

Wow. Big pill to swallow, I know. As we looked at what we've been doing we recognized one sly, sneaky element that we'd let in: we were still DOING things, believing that if we were good enough, did the right things, lived the right way, THEN God would heal Matt. Now that I think back to scripture I don't recall seeing those stipulations anywhere, do you? However, we do have to BELIEVE and RECEIVE. Done. Now what?

God showed us both years ago that it is one thing to have head knowledge of Him; it is another thing to have a heart knowledge. It is very much the difference between marrying someone because you've been arranged to by your parents or marrying someone because you are so passionately in love that you can't imagine your life without that person. In both cases you know the groom, you know what is going to happen, but in one case it is a head knowledge (intellectual) of the groom. In the other case, it is a heart knowledge (relational).

Knowing God has been very much like that for both of us...we've allowed ourselves the opportunities to spend time with God so that we have both fallen deeply in love with our Savior. However, just as you continue to learn things about your spouse after the wedding, the same is true for a realtionship with God. There are STILL things we are learning about Him...everyday! And now is the time for us to know and understand the miracle of His healing. So this is the plan...

Matt is giving up chemotherapy for God-therapy. Instead of hours under the IV drip, letting chemicals invade and attack his body, Matt is spending hours will God letting His Spirit soak him and minister to him...and allowing God to heal his body. We both KNOW in our heads what the Bible says about healing; however, just as we took time to let God reveal Himself to us relationally, now is the time to spend in His presence letting Him make that head info about healing a REVEALED truth in our spirits.

I know...this is pretty much the most in depth, and honest, explanation I've posted so far. I completely expect many of you to think we've cracked and gone off the deep end. :) And we're okay with that. We KNOW we are in God's will and living obediently for Him; that is far more important that how we are perceived by the world. We love you all and pray that you will be open to receiving this, that your hearts will be softened and still willing to love us as we are!! Be blessed with His love and revelation today!

Hmmm...what is God up to?

So, Matt had a CT appointment for yesterday, but for some unknown reason it never got scheduled. Dr. Kohler ordered it and noted it, but nothing was arranged. It's been rescheduled for Friday at 6pm. We aren't worried, though we do wonder if God is up to anything. I mean, the last time things were unexplainably moved/cancelled Matt's blood screen came back clean :)

Some fun news re: God's take on this situation. Recently Matt attended a Personal Prophecy Night with a dear friend and gifted prophet. We haven't told her about the increased AFP count yet, but part of her word for Matt was very revealing. God kept referring to a circumstance in Matt's life, inconvenient and not typically enjoyable (hmmm...sound like Matt's diagnosis?). Well, God also kept calling it a "little thing"; this "little thing" will pass. How encouraging to know that something the world would/could label as tramatic and/or life changing God views it simply as a "little thing". :)

Love y'all...be blessed with peace and clarity today!